hmmm where can i start.. its all everywhere, i cant organise my thoughts n duno where to start.. kekkeke xD..
well, approx. 3 months have passed really quickly.. there has been quite a lot of changes occuring thru those times.. first of all, some of u might knw that i ended my "old-time" relationship, finished all my exams n assignments (YAYY :D).. the first few weeks, it has been realy tough on me since i finally face the world on my own, literally.. :p at th
at time, the feelings that appeared on my mind are : lost, scared, confused, blank, n every other words that i cant say one by one..
then i started to go to the wrong direction.. its not that i did a totally bad stuff.. but i realised that i was stupid n my mind was "unstable".. i hurt some people that i knw they shudnt be.. but i didnt and never regret n kept on learning.. Till one day, i MET this special person who i can talk to freely.. i always smile whenever talking or looking at that person.. i somehow knew for sure, that it was different... and again, sometimes i go too fast with some reasons that do not need to b explained.. one day, i shared some unnecessary things to that person n somehow dissapointed him/her.. i chose that decision based on my heart and took the consequences.. i dunno wat happened that nite..
from then on, i learn more to take things slowly n just let it be.. i do not want to just talk BUT i want to prove that i can reduce some negativities within me even thou i cant change myself fully. I still wana b myself with some corrections made as time pass by :)) by today, i know that i have some hope on that special person.. knowing some people do not mean my heart is comfortable withh all of them.. THAT ONE stands out of the crowd =)
blehh blah blah.. even no one undrstands wat im blabbering about, i myself feel better to let all these hassles out of my mind.. rah rahh.. kkekekek x)
my actions n changes need not be written nor explained... will just let time proves it :D
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